Well of course after I got all worked up about my new Vonage account a guy at work shows me something with a lower price....like $20 less. That sux. Of course it does basically the same thing and even has my zip code which the I currently has doesn't. I should switch over, but hell....I think I'll keep it anyways if I'm not happy with it then I'll change down the line. Other work news, I got my shiny new 450Mhz today...there's a noticeable speed difference but NT still sucks. I was given this project as well that I've basically been slacking on, it's supposed to be done by Friday so I guess I better start putting some actual work behind it. I don't know why I even said that I could do it....I guess that'll teach me.
I bought some more audio stuff for my car today and then I went looking for a new car....new car audio stuff in old funny lookin car just seems wrong. So I went looking for some new shiny paint bucket, I found a couple and then I even tried to find out if I could get financing. Of course it came back denied because of my wonderful credit history but oddly enough I can go in for a home loan and get approved a lot easier....I don't understand. What else happened? The weather sucks....it was raining like crazy today and I happened to get stuck in it, but I felt better because I was carrying a bunch of audio equipment. Well off to work...

For some odd reason blogger is no longer working with Mozilla 1.4b or whatever I have, either I'll update or continue to complain about it...whichever is easier. Well....do I feel better today? somewhat. I still feel like I have sent things off in a bad direction for everyone. Enough of that though, interestingly enough I had a pretty good day at work so far...I'm not really as bored as I have been on other days, great start. I did talk to one of our Network Admin guys about my computer, (a Cyrix 250Mhz) it runs like crap so I sent in a ticket and he said he would hook me up with a new one...well semi new. (400 Mhz) I also recommended getting rid of our two computers (Windows NT & HP-UX) and just having one....one with Linux on it of course. The guy I talked to said he actually recommended it to his boss and his boss told him to "Keep asking me" so I guess he's just looking for someone to convince him. I think I'm pretty much up to that job, the NA guy was thinking about Lindows 4.0 because he said he actually got Remedy 5.1 working on it....if he did that then that's pretty big because so far I haven't seen anybody say they have Remedy runningy on linux. So I'm gonna pickup a copy of that for about $50 then install it at work and on a test machine at home. I would also probably make up a mock network just so I can show the other higher ups some more benefits of using linux instead of the crap we have.
Another good thing I did was setup up my Vonage Account so I should get my phone next week, with a wisconsin number...hey that's big news since I live in Ohio. I'm really excited about it....I even signed up for the affiliate program. So if anybody reads this and goes with Vonage for their Broadband phone...come holla at me. They currently don't have my area code but once they do I'll have a wisconsin number as well as an Ohio number.

Well I actually had already typed something but since I was messing with the damn template, I erased it.....Arrgghhh!!! Anyways, like I was saying before I really didn't feel in the mood to post anything but I figured I might as well since this is a part of my life. Basically what happened was that I created drama for myself, but this time the stakes seemed to be a lot higher. This has to do with an ex of my and my son's mother, it wasn't anything that you might expect....well maybe a little. I created a situation to where I was lying to people again....again, because I caused a more hostile event in the past. This time wasn't like the last but like I said the stakes are much higher, I feel a lot more horrible, and the situation is not as bad as last time. It was the lies though....the little lies turned to big lies, which are turning into life changing events. I feel like I've ruined the lives and future plans of others now....I even feel like I've changed plans for my son. I just feel bad....I just wanted everyone to walk away cuz I felt that was the right solution, in some ways it was others it might not be. So .. .. .. Here I am .. .. .. What have I done?