Ramble Rant

I sit here in my 3 walled cube contemplating about where my life has been, what it is, and where it is going. I know for certain that what I want out of life is way more than what I have right now. I'm not really sure how its gonna come about though, There are other times when I'm not even sure its gonna come about at all. It gets very easy sometimes to succomb to the voices telling you that you can't get what you want. That's when the plans for the future just seem to crumble right in front of your very eyes. I was never really to fond of making out plans before, especially the ones that had to deal with.... Life. I don't think I can answer the "What are you doing in 5 years?" type questions, but I do know that I want my plans to be a success. Hell, I may even say that I know they will be.

Friday ..... and not a day too soon, another sequence of days at this place called work and I would probably fall out or something. It was just one of those weeks that you wish was over on Monday... No... wait, Sunday night before the week even gets started. Every once in awhile those weeks comes around and just bugs the fuck out of you, but what can you do. This day is beginning to drag ass straight from jump, hopefully its not like this the rest of the night..... Wait, what am I saying? Of course its gonna be like this for the rest of the night, nothing left but to kick back and enjoy. Tmorrow should be good though hopefully get some cleaning done early, see a movie or something, maybe my best friend would come through or whatever.

I did figure out how to get these VCDs I downloaded onto CD, I was being lazy about at first and wasn't looking hard enough to find the answer. Out of the whole procedure I had the simpliest part to do, just put the thing on CD.
I run RedHat 8 on the machine where the VCDs are, so all i really needed to use was CDRDAO. The command was: cdrdao write --device 0,0,0 movie.cue

And that begins the burning process, if you dont know what the device number is just do this command:
cdrecord -scanbus
Find the device number for your burner and stick it in in place of the 0,0,0 that I have. Other than that the process was relatively painless, now I just need to figure out how to turn other movies into VCDs.

These links go out to all of my fellow techies working in the trenches of tech support in help desks, call centers, and CS positions all around the world.

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I have finally come to the distinct realization that I really am a sheep in this thing called "Corporate America" even if I was trying so hard not to be. I started this job thinking I could use my big brain for something useful... come up with all kinds of time saving programs and scripts, making things more efficient, more productive. I know realize that it is not my job to do that, they don't pay me to think ... just do. The funny thing is that it took me this long to finally realize that. I guess that's why doing your own thing is so important, so you can feel like less of a sheep than you already do.

You know what else I think my problem is.... I really want to break free of that. Break free of alot of things and not have to just do and follow.... I want to be able to be, live, and enjoy. What I think bothers me the most is just being another face in the crowd, when I want to be so much more.

I would also like to add that even though I maybe a sheep right now, I should still be out there fighting on. Trying to help other sheep not be sheep any longer.

Find MP3s using Google

Now I'm gonna say that you should only download legal MP3s, I'm not gonna promote illegal downloading or anything..... but this was just something that I saw that I needed to share.

Find MP3s using Google

I got the idea when I saw the show notes for The Screensavers and they were talking about this. I figured they obviously were searching and found this so I could probably find it too. It's a fairly interesting use of Google, which only leaves me to think of what other things can you search for.

It's sort of funny how things seem to come back around on you, that whole reaping what you sow thing... yea thats it. I guess I've always been paranoid about it because I know all of the things that I have sowed.....with relationships in particular. Now I'm not saying that I had a girlfriend/boyfriend relationship recently that has shown me that. I do have a friendship though that has shown me that, certain things in my life still have not been dealt with. I think I have come a long ways from before though, I no longer feel bound with trying to keep up these many worlds and many faces that I created. Things have become a lot clearer as well, I still had those things I was holding on to though. Fear of the not known, fear of not having control, fear of being hurt ..... Those will definitely slow down and progress that I feel I may have made. So I guess from now I'll probably try to adopt more of a "Fuck It" approach, not really in a bad way fuck it but just become more open, more vulnerable, and pretty much more receptive. I'm still a really closed off person and I've never wanted to deal with it, now I think I will.