I have finally come to the distinct realization that I really am a sheep in this thing called "Corporate America" even if I was trying so hard not to be. I started this job thinking I could use my big brain for something useful... come up with all kinds of time saving programs and scripts, making things more efficient, more productive. I know realize that it is not my job to do that, they don't pay me to think ... just do. The funny thing is that it took me this long to finally realize that. I guess that's why doing your own thing is so important, so you can feel like less of a sheep than you already do.

You know what else I think my problem is.... I really want to break free of that. Break free of alot of things and not have to just do and follow.... I want to be able to be, live, and enjoy. What I think bothers me the most is just being another face in the crowd, when I want to be so much more.

I would also like to add that even though I maybe a sheep right now, I should still be out there fighting on. Trying to help other sheep not be sheep any longer.